Some trials

As a youngster I saw children playing around in restaurants in malls any where and generally running amuck!  At that time I decided that if I ever have kids they would defiantly not do that, I have raised my children with only one real rule..... The Golden Rule.... Here it is law any one who dares go against it will suffer the wrath of me... the golden rule is simple and self explanatory, you treat others with the same respect you want for yourself, just as plain as that, if you want to be hit and yelled at then by all means go ahead and hit and yell!.....

  I have also taught them that every time they leave our front door they are ambassadors of the Smith name and we don’t want any shame or embarasment  to come to that name.

  When they were just beginning I taught them to use two words, please and thank you, I told them they were magic words, and indeed when ever they used them they were magic.

  Now that they are 8 and 9 I have no fears of letting them go anywhere from a visit to the queen of England,to their best buddies I know they will use their very best manners

   I got a lot of flack for being so strict about manners and was asked many times to go easy on them and please is not necessary, but I held my guns, even hubby thought I was going a bit far about insisting that they say please and thank you so much but now I know I did the right thing....

pregnancy

  I love my babies no one knows that more than they do, but when it comes to pregnancy, no thank you!

   When i first learned i was pregnant December 1994 i was filled with glee then it quickly turned to uncertainty.

   Right away i started to get sick in my pregnancy, I had morning noon and night sickness, I spent 2 weeks in the hospital for kidney stones, But before that i spent a week on the couch praying to god i wouldn't die, then on second thoughts I was afraid i wouldn't die, I never thought pain could be so bad.  When i got out of the hospital, the all day sicks started to go away for a bit and then it was just morning.

  On the 28Th of August I had a regular check up with the Dr. this is when we decided Baby would be born via C-Section, The ultra sound showed that she was going to be in the 9 pound area, and with my short statue it was going to be a very difficult birth, see she was 2 weeks over due and had not dropped into position i was so uncomfortable, and tired i agreed to everything they said, if they had told me that hanging by my toes would be the best for me i am sure i would have given it a try.

   So we went home had a terrific dinner, called the future grandparents and told them Baby would be here first thing  on the 30Th.  I remember the doctor telling me to get sleep because i needed it, and there wouldn't be much time after baby was born to catch up boy was she right, too bad i didn't take her advice.......

The Unknown

.. I never did get the sleep i really should have, we stayed awake most of the night excited and a whole lot scared about what was going to happen, we knew that a baby was going to change things in our life but we really didn't know just how much until Hailey was born.

   Going into the OR was a really scary thing for me, i was pepaired to go into labor and give birth naturally, but going into a sterile environment with every one behind masks had to be more scary than the boogie man himself! I went in with only a slight idea of what was going to happen, when i say slight what i really mean is... i knew i was going to stay awake and Jim was allowed to come in... I was surprised when I was told that i had to be prepped and Jim was to wait out of the room... (even now after all this time i tear up thinking about it)  I was to have an epidural and any one who knows me knows that i must be fully versed on all points before i am comfortable. Everyone knew their job and i had complete faith in them i knew i was going to be OK, no one died of fear did they?

   very soon after Hailey Beverly-Ann made her appearance she was a beaut! all 8 pounds 5 ounces of her! As soon as i held her i knew i was in love! and i just had to have another! (crazy? i know)

   Hailey was 16 months old when Kassidy was Born. Why the rush?.....

Sad Day

  It is a sad day today on the eve of mothers day, as today I must say good bye to a true friend, in fact a pair of good friends, as friends like these can only truly  come in pairs.   My shaggy worn out slippers have finally tread their last.

  Oh how wonderful they were keeping cold toesies warm and safe from small sharp toys. They were fuzzy slip In's that were blue,purple and mauve in a patchwork design, with rubber soles, they were perfect for dashing out of the house to take the kids to the bus stop, even in rain.

   As I sit and reflect on my poor dear departed friends I can not help but wonder if I really appreciated them to their full potential, did they know how I loved them? they were the first things I put on in the morning and the last things I took of at night, every one knew about my slippers and we became inseparable, but now I must say good bye.

  This brings me to another thought, do my children know how much I love them? do they know how I appreciate them? And how lost I would be without them?

Little lessons are being taught to us every day, am I quiet enough to hear?  Am I wise enough to listen?

  Today I believe I have learned my lesson, I need to show my children and Husband how much they mean to me and not to take a minute with them for granted whatever the reason I can give....

Kassidy has been on her medicine for just over 3 months and I am happy to report, I have a new daughter, OK not literally but figuratively.

  She was reading at a barely grade one level when we were going thru testing and now she is catching up with her class and will be ready for grade 3 with the rest of her class, her confidence has just exploded! I am soo proud of her, she has been thru some really scary things in the last little while and she is terrific at remembering to take her Meds, She isn't so very tired any more and can almost make it  to 8:30 now! (he he he ) also one of the biggest improvements, she doesn’t fall down stairs as much anymore, she was having so many seizures for awhile she would fall down the stairs almost every time she tried, she didn’t know she had fell until all of a sudden she found herself on the floor, how scary is that?

   I just wanted to up date and let every one that 'baby' Kassi is doing great!

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