Since I have to be working out anyways I figured I might as well re-attempt the C25K program so that I go knowing what I'm going to do rather than playing eenie-meenie-minnie-mo with the cardio machines.

So today was day 1.  I did it and was 'pushing it' a little towards the end, but I did NOT cheat, not once.   I'm sore now though.  I am really hoping that this is the time I succeed.

If you aren't familiar with the program you can read about it on this link http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml

It's what I am considering putting on my site under "about me"

I've always been interested in photography as "something I'd like to do but probably wouldn't be good at"  I'm more of a scientist than an artist, and I've always considered photography art.  I didn't realize that not all art was the same.

After I had kids my interest was renewed.  I didn't like the cookie cutter pictures from chain photography places and the other photographers I'd gone to took very creative, fun pictures but it still wasn't what I was looking for.

I began to read about composition and how to take my own pictures.  They were still snapshots, but I was happier with them than the studio pictures we had.

Then it finally happened.  I went back to school and for the art requirement I was dreading I took photography.  We shot on black and white film and developed our own pictures in the darkroom.  Seeing that first picture appear in the chemicals had me hooked from the beginning.  I immediately began planning on how I could set a darkroom up in my house.

From there my love grew quickly.  I thoroughly love showing people the world the way I see it.  The details they may be too busy to stop and notice or a perspective other than their own.  In wanting to show other people what I saw, I began to see more too.  I found beauty in even the ugliest of places.

Then the inevitable happened.  A friend who had seen some of pictures asked if I could take some of her son.  After all, real photographers were too expensive.  I cringed at the comment, but was thrilled that I had someone besides my own kids to photograph.  When I took her the proofs I had an epiphany.  She looked at one of the pictures that wasn't as technically correct as many of the others and just stopped.  She didn't say anything, she didn't move.  She just sat there looking at the picture.

I will never forget her words when she did speak.  "This picture shows so much of his emotion that I see everyday.  In my mind this is how I will always remember him when he was 2" 

A HA!  That's why I was never happy with studio pictures.  They were taken by someone who had just met my kids merely moments before, in a setting that was unfamiliar and strange to my kids.  The photographers would pose them according to their wishes and use props that my children would have never otherwise shown an interest in.  I was seeing my kids through the photographers eyes.

I still love showing people world as I see it, but I also love the challenge of giving parents photos of their children as they see them.    My photos aren't taken in some strange studio or posed according to "the rules of photography"  I will come to your home, or other location of your choosing and spend a short time getting to know you and your children.  Most of my photography is taken with natural light, but sometimes Mother Nature doesn't cooperate and circumstances require additional lights.

Thank you for considering letting me capture your child as seen through your eyes.

Dear Heather,

First of all I want you know what a great change I've seen in you over the past couple of years.  I know that none of has been easy, and even the fun and rewarding things have been difficult.  You are definitely on the right road, even if it's not a smooth ride.  You have regained confidence that you didn't even realize you had.  You are happier, smilier, and once again fun.  You are the you I've always known.

I also wanted to thank you for all of the little things you do.  Clean up pee from in front of the toilet several times a day because the males (yes, even the big one) don't know how to aim.  Also, smart move just removing the bathroom rugs and figuring why so many of them were getting ruined.  I know that no one else in the house cares what the bathroom looks or smells like but hopefully someday they'll appreciate what you do.  Thanks for making the kids do their chores when no one else thinks they should.  Most days you are calm and patient about it, I wish someone would step in and help you out on the days the patience seems to be missing.

Thank you for all the times you bit your tongue and don't say what you are thinking but shouldn't say.  Thanks for being patient about still not having a kitchen sink.  I know it's a total PITA and no one else really seems to care.  Kudos for taking the high road and not mentioning that had it been fixed a few months ago when you suggested replacing the washer or even doing it yourself (I know you were told "it's not your job") when you are frustrated about hauling water from the bathroom (which is no where near the kitchen) to the kitchen so you can do dishes.

Thanks for all the big things you do that you don't want to do.  They make life a little better, even if your family does whine and moan because you are doing them.  Most of the time it's regular things and the whining does go away.

I know you've stuck by Paul when you felt like giving up many times and no one has noticed.  As hard as that is on some days, I still think you made the right decision.  While you lost your temper occasionally, you were able to stand in the face of anger and be accused of just 'taking the easy way out' when what you are going through is anything but easy.  Unfortunately chances are no  one but you will realize how hard those decisions were to make, and even harder to follow through on.

I have more to say, but I have to go for now.

Chin up,
Your only Cheerleader

    

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If you are nearing the end of your rope...




Climb HIGHER!

I was working/on call yesterday from 6 am until 10:40 pm.

Yup!  Long day.

There was a mix up as to what time Rod was going to come on for me so I ended up being on call from 6 to 8 and we got paged out at 7:40.  Lovely.  Rod was still a ways out of town and we had a nasty storm so I knew it would take him a while to get the rest of the way into town.  We didn't finish that call (it was a life flight call too--they are usually quick) until 10:40.

Paul was suppose to go in at 9 last night and was not at all happy with the time mix up.

bleah.

I'm working too, but normally on weekends we have a few hours after I come home and before bed that we can be a family.  This weekend he has to run off to bed to get some sleep so he can work.  Double bleah.

Kids are off on Monday, and I was hoping they'd have school so I could do housework in semi-peace.

I did some math, and between the multiple rolls of film I am having to develop for class, my brothers wedding, and the several people who want to have me take "just a few shots" that I don't feel like I should be charging it works out that the camera I've had my eye on ever since I played with it in Staples will pay for itself by May.  We decided that we could use a portion of tax money on it.

So, I just ordered it *gulp*

It cost $10 less than our old beater car. 

Anyone have a paper bag I can breath into?

Can't.move.arms.

I really really really hope that we don't get any calls that require moving unconscious, overweight patients.

Apparently I have the wrong idea of the circuit training class.

I thought it meant you went and worked out for 30 minutes 45 times during the semester.  I learned today it means you come with a friend and sit on the weight machines and talk for half and hour.  *sigh*

I however, chose to spend some time on the elliptical and working my arms.  I fully expect to not be able to move tomorrow.

No earth shaking poses to show you, but we worked our hips and it kind of feels like towards the end of pregnancy when your hips start to relax and just kinda hang out.  I wonder how it would feel if you did this throughout your pregnancy and then the relaxin kicked in.

I'm feeling very comfortable with yoga, and wonder why it took me so long to get into it.

Truddle, I think it's something you would like, regardless of the  pretzel poses.   I find myself thinking of you or things we have talked about when I am in meditation poses.

Paul had his eye appt today.

His optic nerve appears to be enlarged.  *sigh*  The pressure inside his eye is normal, so that's a plus.  What I've been reading they are finding more and more glaucoma that doesn't have anything to do with an increased pressure.

Diabetes, his heart, his avoidance disorder, his lipid levels, his 'getting sick a lot for a long time"  I feel like I'm standing on a sand bar that is slowly getting washed away from me.

I know almost nothing about glaucoma, other than he is at high risk.  I don't want to google up a bunch of scary websites, and my resources don't have a lot of eye information in them.  I feel powerless without the information but I need to make sure I am getting good solid information.

Barry wanted to refer him to someone up north, but Paul said "Heather won't want to spend the money to take up or take the time off"

WTH?

I'd take him to the moon if I needed to.  UGH

I really struggle knowing how to communicate with him so I end up coming here and getting it all out.  He honestly believes that I won't take him to the specialist :(

Yup, we're into week 5 of class and I just went to my first workout.  yipes.

I'm gonna use my blog to keep track so that I know I'm getting as much time is as I need to have.  It probably won't be many long entries though.

My inner thighs are still tight from Tuesday's yoga venture, so I thought I'd do something slow and easy so I biked.  It seems really sad to bike inside on such a nice day, but I wouldn't get credit for riding up the canyon.

Ok, I'm finally there!  (please let me not eat my words later)

Today I wasn't ready to be done after 20 minutes.  I feel very stretched and loose and just....like my body is happy.

We worked on shoulders today, and man mine have been bother me A LOT lately.  I've thought of going to Brian (my chiro cousin) but debating back and forth.  I'm going to go on Thursday as well, and hope that it sees me through 2 days in the bakery (not sure why but the bakery really seems to tense me up)

I think it might have been laying with the blocks between our shoulder blades that did it, I really felt things loosen up after that but I'm not sure.  I'm hoping I can find a block at wal-mart so I can do it at home if needed.

As for poses we did...




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