I was working/on call yesterday from 6 am until 10:40 pm.

Yup!  Long day.

There was a mix up as to what time Rod was going to come on for me so I ended up being on call from 6 to 8 and we got paged out at 7:40.  Lovely.  Rod was still a ways out of town and we had a nasty storm so I knew it would take him a while to get the rest of the way into town.  We didn't finish that call (it was a life flight call too--they are usually quick) until 10:40.

Paul was suppose to go in at 9 last night and was not at all happy with the time mix up.

So, I did ok for 2 hours today with *J*  Right up until she clocked out.  As she left she looked at the schedule and said "Cool!  Friday the 13th!  I always forget which month that it in!" and out she walked.

That wasn't so much an annoying thing as an "are you for real?" thing.  I'm trying to be more patient, more understanding with *K* and *J* then when I get my lighting I'm quiting.  It's just not worth it most of the time.

So, I got my schedule for the next 2 weeks.  I only open once and several mid-shifts with way too many of them going until 5.  Until 5 puts all 3 kids in daycare for a long time, and isn't worth it to me money wise.  I'm going to have to closely track how much of our daycare bill is because of Hogi Yogi and how much of it is for other things and compare it to what I bring home.

I'm back to I don't know if I should quit or not, but I think I'm going to work all of January and then reassess things in February.  I'm not the type to give something up the minute it starts to become not convient, but at the same time I don't want to try to make something work that is affecting my family negatively or isn't going to get better.

I also don't know if I should take the evening statistics class or try to drudge through online.  Taking it in the evening would either up our daycare bill (again!) or really mess with Paul's sleeping schedule.  I do have serious doubts about 'getting' math from a text book though.  *sigh*

I do have a couple of people who feel very comfortable with stats who said that they would help me, so maybe I'll be ok.  Maybe.

School doesn't even start for a few more weeks and it's causing me stress.  At least I know the stress will leave once I figure out a schedule.

It's days like this that I wish I could say "Mom and Dad, I'm not sure what the right answer in this situation is, can you help me out?"

The 26th I worked first crew with the ambulance.  I'm very glad I did, we were busy all morning and I finally got some decent patient care time in (I'm almost half way done!  woohoo!)

While were out on runs I got to do real things!  Not just taking a set of vitals in the back of the ambulance as we are transporting a patient to a care center, not just running and getting things from the ambulance, but actually doing things.  Not doing them as the paramedics are watching every step I do, but doing them on my own because they trust my skills.  It's been hard getting many shifts in with my schedule, especially in December, but it feels nice when several of the shifts have been with the same paramedic and I now have her trust.  Of course now I probably won't work with her again for a long time, but that's not the point.

It felt wonderful for them to ask me for a BS level and just want the number, not watch me do it. 

I'll leave out the part about the oxygen tank getting stuck on the gurney.  That wasn't my fault, it just landed in my lap.

Remember my rush job "can you take our pictures for Christmas cards?" 2 weeks before Christmas?  Well, turns out she likes the picture so much she wants it blown up as big as you can, at least 16 X 20.  Unfortunately I'm limited because I developed them on a rush through a sub-par place and the scans will only print 12 X 18.  I'm thrilled that she wants one that big though :D  yeah me!  And to call me back after the fact about it is even cooler.

A little bit of history.  For as much as I dislike some of the people I work with, I love who I work for.  My bosses are wonderful.

So, I turned my January schedule for the ambulance and there are more days/week than there have been (yeah!)  Including almost every Monday, which they are counting on me to open at Hogi Yogi.

Per my post a few days ago, I don't think I can cope opening with K 3 days a week.  I really, really don't think I can.  It's not fair to me, the kids, or Paul.

So, I get a phone call from my boss tonight asking what the ambulance schedule means and if I can work at all one those days.  I felt horrible telling her no.  *sigh*

I need to put my time and effort into what is going to move me forward in life.  *sigh*  I feel absolutely horrible.  She was counting on me and I had to tell her no.

I want to do the ambulance long term though, and I'll be finished with Hogi Yogi as soon as I graduate.

*sigh*